"Wanderer above the sea of fog"- inspired by the painting

Art has always held a special place in my heart. Expressive paintings capture my imagination in the blink of an eye. I can sit for hours trying to interpret the thought behind the brush strokes. Honestly, i was never a fan of landscape paintings but "Wanderer above the sea of fog" by Caspar David Friedrich was one to treasure. It is the inspiration behind this poem. I've retained the name as it lends its special charm to my work.

He could feel the mountain
Rumble beneath his feet
He raised up his eyes
And the sun they did meet

His coat flapped in the chill
Winds with a mind of their own
They made love to the trees
He heard them moan

White softness filled the ground below
Emptying out the golden sun
Filling in with glee
A little darkness, a little fun

His mind roamed disturbed
To his wife and child
To whom he'd entoned
"I shall see you in a while"

A white hole much like black
Called up to him with magical malice
He looked into the whiteness
And saw only silence

It's stillness made his heart hum
So many emotions ran amuck
His chest heaved in want
He longed to leap like a majestic buck

The hand around his walking stick tightened
His body tried talking sense
His mind, an entity all it's own
Coaxed him to dance in the fog so dense

Eyes now shut
He craved a decision
Move back and into life
Or move forward and live as part of this vision

Black mountain tips
Like exotic fingers beckon
The man on the mountain
A wanderer he reckons

Wander he must, to wander he wants
Life had plans, he was forced to move on
His world in black and white
And he was but a mere pawn

Set me free
To the whiteness he begged
Make me alive
And inched forward his legs

A change of heart
His wife and child in its chamber
He retreated backward quietly
Distancing him from delicious danger

All of a sudden his world stood clear
His humming heart rose to a roar
Throwing aside his stick and coat
The eagle inside him soared

He ran toward the precipice
He ran forward with all he could give
He spread his wings
And dived into the whiteness to live

The whiteness accepted him
And they became one
Then together they floated over everything
His journey had finally begun

Smile?

How banal they seem
The pictures on the wall
Snatches of time
Perfectly framed large to small

Look, there blossoms a smile
And a laugh that's seemingly true
Jealous eyes and meaningful tongues exclaim
"So happy they look, those two!"

Ha! Fooled you we did
With our well practiced charade
Our smiles and hugs and laughter
Hides the darkness that never seems to fade

He is a wife beater
She, a vicious gossip
He has many a mistress
Her disease for now a cut on her lip

He has a weakness for children
No not the right kind
She knows and still behaves
Conveniently blind

He craves her sister
She craves his cousin
He tortures his children
While she starves them thin

He plans to kill her
And she plans the same
Who knows which hunter will succeed
In this pulsating sinister game

He feels like a wash out
And wants to end his life
She adds poison to his tea
Tired of being his wife

So much darkness and yet
The smiles never falter
Throws poison pixie dust into the air
And make believe follows after

These smiles you see
They throw green grit in your eye
But little do you know
Behind each smile hides a little lie

Dear Daddy

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This may seem surprising daddy
But did you know
Even before i could see you
I knew you so

I knew your voice
And your caress
As you showered mummy
With nothing but the best

When you sat beside me
And held mummy's hand
And talked and talked about me
Yes! All I did understand

To come out and see you
I couldn't have been more ready!
Lucky am i to be born
Your daughter dear daddy

When you made mummy smile
You made me smile too
When you hugged her tight
You hugged me too

On your birthday daddy
This is what i want to say
I am the happiest baby in the world
Whenever in your arms in lay

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I see you sitting there
And stare at you with wonder
My son! I think in amazement
And my brain is filled with thunder

This little boy inside me grew
Over a year ago
And now here he runs around
Asking me, a flower to show

I pull the little human into my arms
And crush my face into his neck
And breathe in his sweetness
While in turn he covers me with pecks

Then squealing he runs back into
His little world rainbow filled
With wonderous sights and sounds
While i pick up after my heart that's bubbled over and spilled

He brings me his favorite books
Over and over i read the same story
And just when i by heart every line
He runs off to play with his miniature lorry

Sometimes he runs up to me
And grabs me tight around my legs
Pure love fills to the brim my soul
And hangs my heart up on pegs

Everyday he learns a new word
And it's more than i can bear
With absolute delight as he mouths
Pear! There! Care! Share!

Evenings i really look forward to
For that is when mum and son
Play, read, and have so much fun
Just me and my little one

Today he sat on my lap
And cupped my cheeks with tiny hands as cool as rain
And as his eyes roam over my face
"Amma" he says again and again

My body explodes with fierce motherly joy
And my pulse begins to race
This little angel is a divine part of me
For he stole my heart and left me himself in its place

Rap Battle of the sexes

Girl: oh wait!
What did you say?
Can't believe you said that!
Uh huh! No way

Boy: Oh come on!
What else do i say? Now don't you start!
When you go out with your friends
Dressed like a tart!

Girl: Oh! Tart am i?
Just because of this skirt?
You had no complaints when SHE wore it
You good for nothing flirt

Boy: There you go making up stories
Am i supposed to keep my eyeballs stationary?
Man! To even say hi to my mama
I feel so damn wary!

Girl: Mr.Righteous here kicking up a storm!
And such a cheapskate you are
Remember our last date
When you took me to a sports bar?

Boy: It was game night!
You forced me to go out!
So that's what we did
You should learn what compromise is about

Girl: And what about that movie
It was so romantic
Did you even put your arms around me?
You were laughing like it was a comedy flick!

Boy: Did that make you angry
You poor sensitive girl
What about that guy in the club
With whom you tried to twirl?

Girl: Oh please!
He was just a friend
And don't tell me you forgot about HER
The way you gawp! Don't pretend!

Boy: you have a problem with women
My mama was right
Girls like you
Always love to fight!

Girl: girls like me? Girls like me?
Don't even get me started on your mama
I'm sick and tired
Of all her pretentious drama

Boy: That's my mama girl
Not some crazy lout
You better shut your mouth
Or i will, have no doubt!

Girl: macho man you pretend to be
Muscles and manliness you show
But how about when you bawl during soaps
About that, only i know

Boy: i had something in my eye
You very well know
That's hitting below the belt
You'll turn my friends into foes

Girl: ha! What i say is wrong
What i say is bad
What about what you say?
You talk as if you know the lastest fads!

Boy: Oh my god! Is this about your skirt?
It looks sexy, it looks wow
I was jealous of all the guys looking at you
That's why i tried to cover you now

Girl: oh honey! Is that why you were angry?
Why didn't you tell me baby
I would have surely changed
Those black pants, Maybe?

Boy: yeah sweetheart
That looks even better
Now change your halter
And wear your new full sleeved sweater

Girl: ok love i'll just...
Oh wait! What did you say?

Who you are

What do I tell you sister

On your big day?

What advice do I give you

What do I say?

May your dreams come true

Is a tale so old

May you be happy

Has too much been told

What if I ask you

To be who you are today

To be that amazing woman

That’s what I would want to say

To be your bold self

To let your heart rule

And stay true to yourself

Through and through

Your unbreakable spirit

Your amazing will

Your beautiful aura

That seeks life out as a thrill

With fire in your heart

And steel in your eyes

Be just who you are

Happiness will find you, you won’t even have to try

Dread

I have been told by some who read my work that it is filled with anger, negativity and pain. I agree. To clear their minds, some turn to alcohol, some to drugs, some to smoke and some to sex. But when my mind fills up to the brim, i clear it with a poem.

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Dread creeping in

I wonder what they’ll say

The moment they see me

I know I’m in harm’s way


It’s something they love to do

Makes me just plain shudder

Words cut through my heart they do

Like a hot knife through butter


They follow me around

And wait for that kink

To shine through my armor

Then they attack without a blink


Saucy tales with a side of tart

Dish after dish they present me

And for dessert on a silver platter

They give me dark dreams…about three


I run and hide and hide and run

Every time with a smile on my face

These vultures they find me

For my hideaway is made out of lace


I’m not cut out for fakeness

My true self inside me screams

For the vultures they fill my head with

A dark winged, murderous theme


They laugh at my agony

And laugh at how I try to recover

From their harpy like scratches

While my face I try to cover


I  want to shout curses

I want to teach them about pain

But that would just set me apart

And make them believe that I’m vain


I would become the girl

Who simply cannot take a joke

Like becoming the devil’s friend

While at me he brandishes his pitchfork


I yearn to break free

But I know I cannot

Because destiny’s silken rope

Binds me to them in an resilient knot

The Story of Hero

My grandfather can never be summed up with mere words though i have tried. The story of a Hero reveals the life of a legend who can never die.
                   

Photo courtesy: Amala Antony

As I put my little boy to sleep one night
He held me close and hugged me tight

"Tell me a story mama" he said
"Not a fairy tale but a tale of a hero instead"

I thought hard but didn't have to think for long
Because I knew of a hero who was brave and strong

"Now listen my dear" I said as I held my little one
"To the story of a hero so amazing...he shone like the sun"

He was flesh and blood, of course that was for sure
But within him, he also had other powers in store

He was a self made boy who became a self made man and  during his time this was tough
He had been through hell and back, his life indeed was rough

But with just his steel mind and bare strength he brought up an empire
That grew and flourished like every man's desire

He was well respected and well loved
Despite his glory, there wasn't an elder before whom his head wouldn't bow.

He was kind and just and willful and strong
But he was a terror to anyone who made any right wrong

An abode to the poor, he helped them stand tall
He was magnanimous because he'd been through it all

Everyone knew his mind was like a sharp dart
But only a handful knew that behind his strong chest beat a beautiful golden heart

Such a handsome hero he towered over all
and yet he would bend double to pick a little baby if it had a fall

He never knew pride though everyone knew his name
He was never a victim to his ever spreading wall of fame

He was a hero who's teachings to men
Showed the importance of first being a human

For he was a loving husband and a loving father
A dutiful son and a wonderful brother

He travelled far and wide because he loved the world
And created good from whatever bad it hurled

His family however remained his joy and pride
His one true prayer was for them never to divide

To this day that prayer has been answered, for they stand together as one
To honor their hero who shone like the sun

"Who is this hero mama?" My son asked me with his eyes wide
"He is the man my son, who can never, ever die"

I take a picture frame off the wall, place it in his tiny hands and show him the face

Of the man who will always have a place
In history, in life, in our family and the earth
A man for whom love would never have dearth

"My grandfather and your guardian angel" I tell him as he looks at my appa in pride
"My mama always told me with him around, happiness would never hide"

"She told me to become a hero just like him; to uphold his name"
"And that is the one thing till today that I claim"

My son kissed his hero's picture and placed it beside his head
"I promise you mama" he told me with a smile "I will be just like appa from the moment I leave this bed"

Pssssstttt!!!

A take on our world and the people in it today.

Image courtesy: wired.co.uk

Whatever happened to humanity
That seemed to have it all
Now all they have are loud mouths
That spin stories so tall

Whatever happened to shut up
And give space to ones faults
Most enjoy bringing them up
Seems at some point an exalt

Whatever happened to privacy
That curtain behind which we hide
Everyone enjoys tearing it down
Including what's left of pride

Whatever happened to nobody's business
Everyone seems to give a damn
About all the world and its business
The word private seems such a sham

What ever happened to good friends
Who you've supposedly made for life
They just love bringing up your past
And torturing to death your wife

Whatever happened to being there
And supporting through thick and thin?
People cackle and drive you up the wall
Its simply too much to ever take in

Whatever happened to kindness
That overrated little word
People pretend to be just that
So that rumors can be heard

Whatever happened to 6 feet under
Where ones past is buried away for good
Monsters stand with shovels and spades
Because rumor carcass is their staple food

Whatever happened to just forget
Such a stupid, stupid phrase
It comes out of most humans
Only when they are in a daze

We're just trying to forget
Because we want a life bright and sunny
No! You don't get to ever bring it up
Just because you think that's funny

Forget! Forget! A chant remains
It's all that's left in our minds
So heaven forbid, all we ask
Is for once in your life, to be kind

Paranoia

This poem just popped into my head after reading "Adam and Eve and Pinch me" by Ruth Rendell. That woman and her writing is sheer genius! I sure hope i did justice to her capture of a mind in the throes of Paranoia!

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I can’t shut my eyes

I cannot sleep

These horrid flitting thoughts

My brain just can’t keep


My mind seems curious

And makes conclusions own

My body responds in rhyme

In a strikingly similar tone


Five W’s and one H

Have ruined my life enough

Yet I cannot seem to get my fill

Of cruelty’s love so tough


So doubtful I am

Paranoia seems the next station

I worry and wither with fever on my brow

My brain dying in ration


I constantly rerun the stories in my head

Such stinking rotten stuff

It keeps my eyes open without a flutter

Till a painful sun comes up


A smile that hides something sinister

On me it surely takes a toll

Trust is but a lousy football game

With no keeper at my goal


I know I shouldn’t ask questions

But I constantly do

And then fall into abject misery

Within torturous minutes few


Quite possibly since there’s nothing to do

I lie awake and grieve

At my slowly sinking, stupid soul

From which happiness has taken a permanent leave


I search for answers everywhere

It further complicates things

It wouldn’t have mattered if I had taken

Everything to be nothing but cheap flings


Though I behave like a princess happy

In a pretty little sparkly dream

My actual life’s a horror movie

With my mouth open in a permanent scream


To give back trust and to believe

Seems the hardest task on earth

I would rather roast my arm off

Over a flaming hot, undying hearth


I lay in my bed quiet

And pray to not go mad

But what can I do when my mind’s the one

That’s taught me that everything can only be bad


Life’s not great I wish I could tell

Anyone who enters it with a smile

Can’t take anymore, I want to end it all

So what do you think? Should I?

Onward

Onward you sail

Little Captain mine

May your journey be blessed

With happiness divine

May you be loving

May you be kind

May you on your voyage,

True love find

Fill your soul with prayer

Let truth your life rule

Find your inner courage

To face the sea so cruel

Do not wander off

The path of righteousness

And may the lord almighty

Your every step abundantly bless

When the seas turn rough

And you feel you may fail

When your trusted crew members

Have all left you and bailed

I will be the compass in your hand

The scope you look through

I will be the wheel you turn

To get to places anew

While at sea little Captain

I will be the steadfast in your tale

Never feel lost little Captain

For I’ll always be the wind in your sails

The House

Her fingers left a trail on the slowly settling dust
A glance thrown carelessly at the iron hinges gathering rust
A sweet, musty smell hung in the air
Memories cloying, coiled down like thick, dark hair
A pall of eternal gray seemed the palette of choice
where silence tip toed with disturbing poise
Her eyes took in the house where once there was life
She took in the rooms where she had once played a wife
How love was all she once knew
And how love into aching despair grew
When who she loved turned into a what
And everything became the opposite of what she thought
Was real, was right, was true, was fair
And life revealed itself; a crippling snare
A coward at first away she ran
Because pure black did her fiery fear fan
Afraid to stand up to, afraid to fight
and all it did was further smite
Her person, her heart, her mind, her soul
So broken, she thought she'd never again be whole
With each passing day she felt warmth leave
Her heart, until it was just an object to deceive
Her body into it thinking it was alive
When all it was doing was slowing taking a dive
Into an abyss where things lay forgotten
Her smile, her laugh and her love lay rotten
This house, a silent witness had stories to tell
Stories so putrid, they've begun to smell
Leaking foulness all around
Ghosts of her past began to surround
For a moment she shut her eyes
And became that timid creature who was despised
Beaten and broken and treated like a whore
Her eyes flew open, for that creature she was no more
No fear was the weapon she chose to weild
No fear had become her permanent shield
For when facing a lifetime of fear
Unimaginable strength surely inches near
The man who once broke her had long since died
His memory lived in this house unable to hide
She tries to remember if he ever did smile
Then she decided that was a wasted while
One last sweep she cast all around
Looked at the mantel and frowned
For upon it sat a piece of the past
which was probably the very last
A framed picture of her as a bride
Happiness she thought has ebbed like the tide
With a sigh she replaced the picture on the rack
And walked out of her personal hell without a glance back
As she reached the workers, she nodded her head
With pure steel in her voice "demolish it" she said.

Days of the week

Some days see me lying on the ground
Just lying there without a sound
Watching a rainbow split the sky the in two
like a sundae of white and blue

Some days see me without a minute
At the end of the day I wonder how I did it
A crazy marathon run hour after hour
With some memories sweet and some a little sour

Some days leave me all giggles
I laugh and laugh until my tummy wiggles
What reason for, like yeah I would know
Just tell me a joke and there I go!

Some days see me so much in love
With my son, with myself, with god up above
I immerse myself in complete delight
And hold onto to happiness so very tight

Some days see me a complete mess
So conked out from all the stress
That's when chocolate holds my hand
What I would do without you I wouldn't understand

Some days see me with a calm soul
I feel so at peace, warm soup in a bowl
Like the smell of patchouli in a steaming bath
Like coffee and cake, well you do the math

Some days see me wanting more
I paddle and paddle but I still don't see the shore
And those are the days I wonder when
I'll reach where I want to and then...

Monsoon

I saw pregnant grey clouds float by
As I sat on my porch sipping chai

A foreboding clap rings through the skies
Then came a flash of light that never lies

My white tablecloth flutters slightly
And leaves run across my lawn so sprightly

The lake behind my house starts a slow dance
Trees dance along as if in a trance

Grey runs thick into the air
And a howl of wind rushes past my chair

Leaves play hide, seek and run
With their losing playmate the now dull sun

A different smell crowds all around
And a chill with its wings surround

Everything and anything and a whole lot more
A lone bird cries, who knows what for?

Turbulent; the gossip of the clouds
As they inch closer to clear their doubts

A tiny plane far away strives and struggles
To make its way home; efforts doubled

My fluttering tablecloth picks up speed
As winds whip through it like a dirty deed

My roses sink into the ground
My lillies are nowhere to be found

Just then a crystal shatters right on my cheek
I stare up at the sky that looked oh so bleak

Like the love of a mother, the rain came down
A sheer sheet of liquid in which I could drown

My half empty chai cup filled to the brim
Wiping away thoughts of everything grim

The soil wore a necklace of emerald and pearl
The smell of wet soil made my insides curl

The pleasure, the happiness of rain profound
Soaking me to the bone and then to the ground

Someone screamed at me to run inside
My heart screamed back "oh! Never mind!"

There I sat white kurtha, cup and all
Just sat there and let the rain fall

TRESamour ♡: A Poem

Once upon a time in a modern day land
There lived a girl with a peculiar problem at hand

Everyone noticed, she couldn't hide
They did no matter what she tried

Part of the problem was her curly, curly locks
Much like curly fries, chockfull a box

They were bouncy and pretty to the eye
Then came the problem by and by

She could not grow her hair no matter what
She tried every method but her hair against her fought

How she wished for curly hair oh so long
The moment it grew everything went wrong

Her hair would break, her hair became rough
Until finally her head resembled a huge powder puff

So she kept her hair short sad as could be
Not knowing why her hair could never grow free

She sighed and sighed at her pals long glorious hair
Then she looked at hers, a sight she couldn't bear

Shoulder length was all her hair would allow
Nothing below that always above

Her expensive stylist said she had terrible split ends
They were so bad, he never felt they'd mend

"Sorry honey! Short hair for you" he said
And I went back to that curly mop with terrible dread

She needed to tame her locks, that much she knew
She needed a solution, a good one too.

An avid blogger she opened her system to see
What was up on indiblogger and there lay the key

A solution flashed on the screen and she felt glad
She would even get a sample to try! Hmmm. Not bad!

"TRESemmè split remedy" the competition was named
Try the shampoo-conditioner and lather your way to writing fame!

The product guaranteed shooing away split ends
Just to get that done backward she'd bend!

Link quickly clicked for a sample to try
To repair her hair over which she so did cry

Then with impatience she so did wait
To receive the product that would decide her hairs fate

After two weeks a package arrived
She wondered the wait how did she survive

Just for the occasion her she'd grown
To see if a miracle would be delivered just like they'd shown

Two pretty bottles in black, silver and green
Sat on her bathroom shelf and so did preen

Try them she did the very same day
Results!  Results! She prayed and prayed

The shampoo was glossy and shiny and smelt reallt good
And worked rich lather like no other shampoo could

She rinsed off her hair and it felt different
Like it doctored her hair on every minute it spent

The conditioner was smooth and creamy and smelt equally great
She felt like she'd found her hairs soul mate

The conditioner spread smooth onto her hair
And she actually felt it work with tender loving care

On her roots and tips she felt it unwind
Whatever weakness was hidden inside

After a rinse her hair felt so soft and shiny
And her brush flew threw her hair oh so finely

No tangles of hair blocking it's path
No longer did her hair face breakages wrath

She kept using her bottled soulmates every single day
Until one day she heard someone say

"Your curly hair looks so LONG and grand"
She felt such happiness, more than she could stand

Her hair grew and grew without a single care
People with admiration used to stare

And when everyone asked her what she did for such beautiful long locks
All she said was "TRESemmè Split Remedy is a product that simply rocks!"

(This entry was written for the TRESemmè Split Remedy contest on Indiblogger)

INFIDELITY

HE

He arrived at eight
And parked his car, a little away from view
He combed his hair into place
Thick and shiny with a reddish hue

From my hiding place I saw her as well
Tiding up all a flutter
When she covered up our wedding photo
My heart it fell in the  gutter

He rang the doorbell
And stood with an uneasy smile
Then the door opened and there stood my wife
Her happiness could be seen from a mile

He rushed right in
And hugged her tight, this I saw so clear
He kissed her deep and hard
My wife, who I love so dear

When up the stairs they tumbled
I quietly opened the door
That in her haste she'd forgotten to lock
And tip toed across the floor

Her skirt coiled around my foot
I saw his blue shirt tossed on a chair
My head spun round and round
As I made up the stairs in despair

I saw them on our bed
Making love like the world stood still
I saw their shadows painted on our wall
My heart with emptiness began to fill

I heard the bed creak, I heard the bed groan
As I walked slowly down
I heard the lampshade begin to fall
I wanted to pack my life and forever leave town

And then my mind thought of a solution
In several ways much better
A simple solution that would save a love
That was slowly starting to fetter

Down the basement I went
To get a  gun from my collection
It had to be right, it had to be perfect
The gun that would stand the selection

A smith and wessen found my palm
And flashes of us came rushing
Our courting, our wedding, our first house
Cobwebs my mind slowly started brushing

The thought of her in his arms
The gun slowly found my temple
Tears ran down my cheeks
Death I realized was so very simple

I closed my eyes for the very last time
And sat on the basement floor
I heard a click as I pulled the trigger
And then I heard no more

SHE

He said he'd come by eight
I was all a quiver
The thought of his lips on mine
Made my insides shiver

I made up the place and covered up photos
Lust quickly overtaking guilt
The door bell chimed and I walked over
Inviting in the secret I had built

He swooped in like a bird of prey
And kissed me hard and deep
The door wasn't even closed
Wondered if the neighbours got a peep!

His shirt went flying
My skirt found the floor
In our haste to make it to bed
I forgot to firmly close the door

We went crazy, so super wild
Shadows jumped across the wall
The bed creaked, the bed groaned
A tossed pillow broke a careless lampshades fall

Amidst the frantic coupling
I thought I heard a loud shot
Ring all the way through the house
To get out of his arms I fought

From the basement I thought
As I rushed down the stairs
Was he getting dressed?
Actually, I didn't really care

I opened the basement door and went down the steps
Only to be greeted by the cold and the dark
Fumbling for the light switch
I saw reality oh so stark

He lay crumpled on the floor
Blood gushed in a silent stream
A bullet hole in his temple
I blinked and blinked to end this dream

"Oh god!" He said from the top of the stairs
And I heard rushed footsteps thunder away
The door slammed a minute later
Well, I didn't care if he'd stayed

I wondered about life and lust
And the aftermath of an empty bed
Crazy thoughts ran through my mind
As I cradled my husbands bleeding head

Discovery

Illusions shattered
And you wonder what's amiss
Well, my clueless darling
That's just how life is

Scaredy Cat: A Poem

Why oh why does this happen
To me of all the living
Right when I thought
My fear...away It must be giving

Posterior suddenly frozen
I sat, warm popcorn in hand
While my mouse of a mind
Took me on a ride to scary land

Why oh why do I do this
Why do I give myself such a fright
Stupid mind stupid mind
Do you even get my poor heart's plight?

Alone I had to be tonight
And that too with a horror movie
Be it cheerful morning time
I would have just said phooie

It was about a girl homealone
Exactly like how I was
And in enters the monster
Spraying blood as thick as sauce

My mouth chews rhythmically
Stuffed full with popcorn
Tension popping my every vein
Fingernails with tension torn

And that's when I heard it
A lone sqeak, a tiny thud
My breath shuddered to a halt
My legs turned to squelchy mud

From the kitchen I fear
That scary noise came
Dare I go check?
Sigh! I wish I wasn't so tame.

So I ignored the sound
And blamed it on my imagination
And started watching the movie
Despite my trepidation

For a while all seemed fine
And engaged in the movie I was
And then again came that horrid thud
My breath drew to a loss

For some reason the remote
Seemed a good weapon enough
So I picked it up from the couch
And tried to make myself tough

There was utter silence in the house
A scary ache that couldn't be hid
My heart was a racehorse in heat
But tip toed to the kitchen I did

It's funny how the best places
Seem the scariest at night
The kitchen with such yummy delights
Seems to give me such a fright

I clicked on the switch
But wouldn't you have it
The light seemed to have fizzled out
Just wouldn't you know it

So I peered through the kitchen
In semi darkness I stood shaking
And slowly made my way inside
With my soul ripe for the taking

The dripy faucet that could never be fixed
The soothing hum of the fridge
The squeaky linoleum floor
The table where mum played bridge

Everything seemed to be in place
And nothing looked out of turn
So jumping to conclusions seemed a lesson
That I took forever to learn

And just when I felt my poor heart
Return to normal pace
Right behind me I heard the thud and sigh
A breath of hot air right next to my face

My legs turned to jelly
And my eyes began to tear
But I decided once and for all
To face what I did fear

I did turn slowly
Much at the pace of snails
Well it was the max I could do
When my back was being raked by nails

And finally I faced what I feared
And my mouth it just fell slack
And right when a scream escaped my throat
The screen just faded to black

Judgement Deserved?

Before you judge me
Look into my eyes with care
Do you see the person
You accuse me of being, there?

Before you judge me
Exchange with me a word
Then you may find
The actual truth behind "stories" heard

Before you judge me
Walk with me for a while
In someone else's shoes
It's difficult to walk even a mile

Before you judge me
First understand who I am
Rather than just lend your ears
To those who don't give a damn

Before you judge me
And laugh with those in treason
Know, the next time around for cruel laughter
They just might declare you the reason

Moth and the Flame

I am in flames
Burnt by the accursed lava
Pouring from your molten smile
Your nightshade eyes
They poison me thoroughly
With every glance thrown
Needles naught fingers
Pierce clean into my bones
And grind against me
I am skinned alive
Your sandpaper touch threatens
To bring out bright flesh
Your breath, drug like
Homogenised with air
Draws me into its death grip
Sucrose words you spit
Into my brain
Cleaves away at my gray
A laugh of snake venom
Trickles slowly into my ear
A roaring deafness ensues
My soul you have raped
My identity you have claimed
My shell you obliterate
And yet I come to you
My toxic fire
Beating my silken moth wings
In time
To my own funeral song